Hey.....

Well,smoking cessation, I'm checking in. Sorry if anyone worried. No..no smoking. Me and my mom had a falling out..a bad one. Doubt we'll talk again for months,Herbal cigarettes, maybe years. It was bad..really bad. I'm in a kind of numb, peace like state. There's just been to much...too many things happen to me lately. I've focused on not smoking so obsessivley and intently that it feels as though part of my brain has been removed by fire. I feel nauseous now to even think of one. So, I'm not worried about that. In fact, I just can't think of anything to worry about today. I've cried all I can cry..pondered "why me?" all I can ponder. I'm really just empty feeling now. I'm tired inside like I've never been before. I just really want to sleep, that's about it. Well...I'll be back soon. I just can't find the energy to do anything today, even sit on the computer. I'm not smoking, don't plan too...feels like I've had a lobotomy or something. I'll be back in a few days, just gotta get some rest...so tired. I'll miss you all..take care, and I'll see you soon.