A moment of weakness.......

while cleaning my car (I'm trying to stay busy) I came across this cigarette between my seats. It was just there. My heart started racing and an unbelievable feeling of AHHHHHH let me smoke this......yes just this one came across me. I had to get away....I shut the car door & returned about 30 minutes later......I could not stop thinking of that cigarette. I took the cigarette, retrieved a lighter,stop smoking, and sat in my smoking chair in my backyard contemplating ...do I do this...it's almost 3 days...my heart didn't want to but my mind was all for it. I got up went into my house got a bottle of water & placed that cigarette in it. I came this far & I was not about to start over again. I have decided not to clean out anything that could even remotely have a cigarette because I came very close to failing myself there. Anyway.......stay smoke free, because after the hell I put myself through today.....I plan on staying smoke free. Esby